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21 January 2013 @ 12:37 am
I was out and about the whole day today. By the time I got home around 8, I got ready to do my daily jog but my dad kicked me out. >.< He felt it necessary to sleep at the exact time I started getting the treadmill ready to use. I don't see why he couldn't tell me that BEFORE I got the treadmill ready to go and took off all the stuff blocking it. Geez. I had to remind myself that, that was atleast some form of exercise moving all that stuff around. 

Anyway, I couldn't not do anything so I decided to try blogilates since jenn recommended her- she was too perky for me and I didn't have those comfortable mats to help me stay comfy during the session, so I began looking for other things online. 


I also did that for like a few minutes and decided I didn't like it so I moved onto this: 

<iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Wq-VeGdQptQ" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

I did that 3 times

<iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/SPGNKMKpL1E" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

I did this twice

<iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/i85WUbYQSbI" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

I did this once

<iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/OQ3BbrsWSJE" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

Ended with this monster 

I probably gonna alternate between jogging and doing these little video stuff. I'm so much sorer doing the videos than jogging and atleast it's a little more fun. 
19 January 2013 @ 09:16 pm

Have to admit, I was so not in the mood to run today. I was considering just leaving off from my 15 minute jog this morning - I almost convinced myself that, that half mile was good enough, but that would only increase bad behavior and the likelihood of brushing off a jog session next time so I forced myself. I nearly tripped while jogging on the treadmill man like my life seriously flashed before my eyes! geez.


18 January 2013 @ 10:01 pm

lawls. my mantra/cheer while I run is..."prom! cuteness! prom D-R-E-S-S! actress! actress!" and yes.. they are accompanied with cheer moves. I have til april to make some type of difference with myself. I just gotta work on curbing my unhealthy cravings for Starbucks fraps, coffee, and sweets.




anddddd like I learned in psych... to change a behavior, I must replace it with another.




plus.. these jogs are awesome for some quality time on youtube and catching up on missed eps of shows. 
ps.. main motivator to get back into this was jenn's awesome subtle weightloss tips video. I began taking pictures of every single thing I put in my mouth today - such a much better way to keep track of what I ate. I always gave up on calorie counting and writing it down midway! lol pictures are so muchore convenient.
although, I just wish googleplay had the eatery/meal snap app too :(


AND even better, this little goal of atleast an hr a day mean that I finally have something to post on lj. BTW JILL if u see this, if there is a day I miss a post on lj and there is no legit proof pic of my little session - I grant u permission to NAG NAG NAG away.. srsly.. plzzzzz.. XD


16 November 2012 @ 12:09 am

I'm panicking.
College apps are due soon.
I'm not sure yet if I'm planning on scheduling any auditions for certain schools to major in drama. it seems too risky.
I can't seem to get my personal statement right. I have this paranoia of sounding pathetic or typical or.... like I'm exploiting my family or something. I don't really want to focus on writing a pity party, but that's what I keep being told to write about - all the "challenges" and crap. I hate my rough drafts.
it's just so boring. therers nothing special about it, and to get into the schools i want... I really need to make myself stand out.


12 November 2012 @ 12:15 am

feeling better.
29 October 2012 @ 03:52 pm

I thought that I would be able to experience being in a more serious relationship by highschool. It's a bit disappointing that I still havent. Lately, I've been feeling unattractive. I feel like the ugly girl blocking the cuter girls. I'd probably never admit that to them out loud though. It might make their heads even bigger. LOL. Seriously, I have to stay committed to the fitness plan my little ol' Jillybean planned out for me. I really want to look nice for prom. I don't want to look back at pictures and regret my laziness.

24 October 2012 @ 11:05 pm
Okay, time for a much needed venting session here on good ol' livejournal. 
I was a raging biaaatch tonight. 
All the work piled up and all the tests waiting to be taken tomorrow are enough to dampen homecoming. 
What made it worse was rushing to practice for my group dance today AFTER JUST GETTING THE FUCK HOME (and hoping I would get some work done before 8 but appara-fucking-ly I still had to be there at 6something even if my partner would be gone til 7) and then finding out my spot was switched out.
It sounds silly. It isn't like my spot was amazing. I didn't want to be in front or anything - 'cause really, I could care less about whether I'm dancing in front or back - but there's just something so fuckin' annoying about someone else taking your spot (especially when the person hardly went to as many of the rehearsals you were forced to go to out of the goodness of your heart even when you had enough work to keep you occupied instead of practicing for the dance). 
"Oh well maybe if you came on time, it wouldn't have happened!" 
Oh really? Are you fucking kidding me?
I've had to switch partners twice before even beginning the dance. Then, I had to withstand the day hearing the whole partner-switch-up being gossiped about (making me sound like a little pathetic reject). After finally getting use to my official partner, everyone is injured and he is no longer able to do it. I scramble to get someone to take his place, reteach the dance, and now.. now to add on to all the little bits and bobs of PISSYNESSSSSS I already felt for this day - the icing on the cake was someone rudely taking my spot. It wouldn't have been a big deal if I was in a better mood. But I wasn't. And I'm not. 
I apologized already for being a huge bitch today 'cause I know they were probably gossiping among themselves at how dramatic I was being but they just don't get it. It wasn't just the fact that I was pushed to the stupid ass side, it was the fact that (while I was already stressed) they decided to just pile it on real real reaaaal thick and take away my spot. 
I know. This probably sounds like a big ol' overcdramatic whiney post, but I can't explain my feelings in any other way. I don't like things being taken from me. I just don't. 

I wish I didn't politely refuse to take back my spot after it was "offered" by the taker when it was obvious that I wasn't a very happy camper. I don't hate her or anything, but to be honest...

I'm still so fuckin' pissed about it. It ruined my night. I don't even feel like dancing anymore. I'll suck it up by the time I wake up tomorrow. I'm not immature enough to let something this trivial bother me to the point of bitchiness for too long, but I'm not gonna lie - I'm staying mad the whole night. 

Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
23 October 2012 @ 11:32 pm
I'm frustrated. Homecoming week is definitely, definitely not fun right now. 
Bad weather, bad luck, and way too much work piled up. 
I'm gonna go cry in a corner before resuming this open forum that needs to be done by tonight. 
22 October 2012 @ 01:13 am
I really, really, reaaaaally hate writing. I especially hate it when it's for an english class. 
It's the biggest pain in the ass for me. If I'm assigned any writing homework, that writing assignment completely throws me off. My procrastination really isn't that bad. I only procrastinate when it comes to writing. I'll finish everything else earlier, and even the smallest writing assignment keeps me up til 1AM. It's even worse when it's a big writing assignment. Big writing assignments usually mean I get no sleep that night, and if I do get any sleep it's an hour or two at the most. 

I hate writing. 
21 October 2012 @ 11:55 am

Last night was pretty flippin' intense.
We hear about things like that happening all the time (and as cliche as it sounds) it's true what they say - you just never expect it to happen to you or the people you're close to.
I realized how lucky we all were last night - for being safe, for them being safe, and for having eachother in a time of need.
I'm just so full of love right now.